Everyday, I think of things I want to write about for my blog. I plan out all the thoughts which I want to remove from system.
But when I reach home, I’m always so mentally and physically exhausted that I end up doing everything except writing.
And When I do this behaviour for 3-4 days in a row, I just become scared of opening my text editor and this gap ends up becomes weeks.
I think is this stems from my issues with executive dysfunction and I don’t really know how I will go about fixing it, to be really honest.
Another thing that keeps me from writing is the voice in my head that keeps telling me that it’s only okay for me to post if my post has more than 3 paragraphs.
I have tried telling myself that not every post needs to be a 5000 word essay. Even a single line will work. But it’s becoming hard to rebel against my own brain. In almost every aspect of my life.
Sometimes I’m sure that its entire plan is to kill me instead of helping me to survive.
But I do know that I have to fight against my brain no matter what. And I’m the only one who can save me from myself.
