this has been an emotional post for me to write so please excuse all the grammartical errors which this post releases with.
fixed on the 21th. :D
happy birthday to me!!
I have been trying to piece together this post since 18th and I’m 90% sure I wont be able to post this on time, it would be 21st by the time I post this no matter what. :P
honestly, I don’t really like celebrating my birthdays, especially, in recent memory.
it’s always me getting more conscious of what I have done all year. in a negative way, that is.
All my peers have gotten jobs this year, and are living like a real adult, But I’m still stuck in the 3rd year of my college, struggling to live thru it.
I’m still not the person who I want myself to be. I have gotten even more rough around a lot of edges, but I’m sure, that I’ll figure it out, sooner or later.
the last few years have been pretty wack for me. but this year has been exceptionally nice with me, well atleast, in terms of people which I’ve met.
I have met so many people who became the reason I look forward to waking up, and being that hope in my life that maybe things aren’t as bad as I think they are.
so, I wanted this post to be a thank you letter to all of them, rather than me reminiscing over my year.
Hi Deisi,
I’m writing this one at the last even tho this appears first in the post. There’s just so much on my mind which I want to tell you. It’s really hard to find words for it.
I’m afraid a lot of it would end up being unsaid due my lack of grasp over this language. 😭
But you have been the bestest of my bestest friend.
It’s just so hard to talk about you, deisi. There is just so much that you have done for me, I’m just struggling to put together words for how grateful I am for you.
You have been the only person who has validated a lot of my feelings in a long time. I know this sounds sad, but I literally cannot think of anyone who has tried to ‘learn’ about me other than you.
Thank you so much for helping me with the Weeekly Weverse Archive and Rubble. Without your help and you being a person I can look towards while trying to make them. I doubt I would’ve ever concieved the idea for making them in the first place, let alone completing them.
I keep repeating myself but there is just so much I have in my heart to tell you, but I just cannot get myself to bring them into words on the screen.
All I can say, is that Thank you for existing, Deisi. I would’ve missed out on so much if it weren’t for your friendship
I do have once advice for you. Maybe double check your screenshots before sending them? doxxing is a serious problem, bro. 💀
xo,
.savy
Hi Mys,
I don’t think we would have ever talked if it werent for my sad posting that day HAHAHAHA.
It’s really hard to find a person who is such a reflection of me, and who understands all of my struggles so well like you do.
I appretiate that you thought that I worthy of knowing about your struggles, and that you consider me a safe space to talk about them.
I’m grateful that I was able to tell you about my plans for the future and you sitting with me, and taking the time to listen to them, means the world to me. I cannot imagine what the state of my mental would be without a person like you in my life.
I’ve said it enough times, and I’ll say it again. I have not been a good friend to you. I have made many promises but I have not been able to fulfill a lot of them. But I assure you, I’m trying to be better every day, and I’ll make it up to you.
I DID NOT FORGET IT. WE WILL COMPLETE GEKIRANGER BEFORE THE END OF THIS YEAR. TRUST.
xo,
.savy
Hi Charisma,
It’s still kind of wild how we became friends. especially since we were Daileee oomfs for sooo long.
that one conversation really ignited my love for art and craft again, and I am so grateful that you took out the time to talk to me that day.
I’ll admit that I get a little jealous when I see you post about going to those little picnics and hangouts.
all I can think about it “Me and rest of Daileees when? 😡“.
I hope we get around to doing that soon. >3
I always pray that you find a way around your struggles, and are always happy and get to attend all the concerts of your favs, at the barricade, and that you get overpayed and under-worked hehe! (I hope I can help with that in the future 🤫)
OH another thing, I have a surprise lined up for next week!! 🤪
and charisma website, when? I want to link it in my blogroll 😔
xo,
.savy
Hi Yimandu,
Don’t take this the wrong way. But yimandu, you have been the most unexpected friendship of mine. Ever.
I can’t really pinpoint how and where I thought about interacting with you, But I’m glad I decided to do that.
I find it hard to find words of assurance for you, cause it’s hard to put by feeling forwards for you, But I wish you nothing but strength with everything. You are a very strong person, yimandu. trust me on this.
I wish you all the happiness in this world, and that you get to meet your “husband” soon 🤭
I’m aware you are struggling with a lot irl, but all I can offer, as an online friend, is that, Whatever you want to talk about, I am always here to listen to it.
I hope we can meet at Weeekly 6th debut anniversary and I get to eat the meal I promised you. ❤️
xo,
.savy
Lastly, Thank you everyone who has been interactng with me over the last couple of years. It’s hard to find words for it, but all of you guys have made my life a lot more bearable and helped me push on through with all of this. and assured me that I an not alone in all this.
