I originally wrote this post on 24th Feb, but never really got the time to post it.
February has been super hectic for me cause I had assigment submissions left and right.
On top of that, my mid-term exams started today. So yea, It’s not been an easy month.welp 😭
Now that’s aside, It’s the month of love!!
The month of Rose Day, Bear Day, Hug Day, and god knows what day, with the main event being Saint Valentine’s Day, which is 14th day of the month.
I’m hope you had a chill and cozy one with your partner and if you don’t have one, I hope still had a chill day nonetheless. 💕
I’ve been having the same kind of valentine’s day since the start of my teenage
And I’m gonna be real honest, I am what they call a KHV, or a “Kissless, Hugless Virgin”.
It’s true, The bucket-list items for First Hug, First Kiss and all the things in between and beyond are still pretty much unchecked. 🙂 I got a 92 on the Rice Purity Test for fuck’s sake 😭.
Tho I have been hit by the cupid three times till now.
- First one was a elementary/high-school crush back in 7-8th grade.
- Second one was another high-school crush but in 10th grade.
- And the Latest one was during my 2nd Semester at College.
None of them really worked out. First one was already in a relationship with my bestie (I wasn’t aware at that time), Second one got fucked over cause of the COVID-19 Quarantine (she admitted to liking me back tho 😭) and the latest one, well, she made it clear she didnt like me, but I was just too slow to catch onto that oops :/
So um, yea, I’m pretty fucked at this point.
These past couple of experiences of mine have kinda messed up my self-confidence a bit, and I have just resorted to just crushing over Soojin.
Cause for once, I know there is no possibility of making a move irl and I can’t fuck up the situation for everyone involved.
I still have very smol hope in some corner of my heart that I will do end up finding the one for me, who will enjoy my company.
But there some time, a couple of years atleast, before something like this would happen. (I do hope that I get proven wrong tho…)
But Yea, This year I really didn’t feel bad for me still being single, not sure why, cause I always sulked at seeing others being with their partners. I wonder why…
- little did I know, shit would hit the fan in the next couple of days…↩
